November 28, 2003 • 3:19 am
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME TOMORROW!!!! I’M GOING TO BE 17! WOO WOO!!!
well, besides those happy occasions, i spent the latter part of my afternoon yesterday hang out with JM. But i think he was depressed. he was not exactly fun to be with, and i caught my self thinking, “I wish I were home, and he was somewhere else.” is that so bad? i mean, i love him so much, but i just don’t know how to deal with people who are depressed. i just don’t.
you know what else has been bugging me? the fact tha he hangs out with my other female friends more than me. i know it’s partially my fault, i don’t want him to be socially deprived, but he’ spending A WEEK WITH LANA, AT HER HOUSE, SLEEPING! i know nothing will happen, it’s just that it’s still kind of bothersome to have a friend ask your boyfriend to stay with them, especially if they hadn’t asked you if that would be okay. WHAT
THE FUCK?! and then yesterday, after i droped JM off, he told me he was going to the movies with Kim. dammit, i said to my self. and it was just him and her. no one else. if you think about it, i would feel guilty if i just went off with one guy friend to see a movie with. it’s just weird, and i would feel bad for not having JM go with me instead. jeez, it’s like he doesn’t know etiquette for dating. i’m so frustrated with him.
and yesterday, when he seemed depressed, he acted like he didn’t WANT to be with me. he was SO…. unresposive. i just don’t know what to do. so half the time, we were silent in the car.
Filed under: Life
November 24, 2003 • 1:43 am
_just got back from Fairbanks, AK about 5 hours ago. it was super fun, and i totally didn’t want to leave. i didn’t want to come home. because i have so much homework and i don’t want to do it. three tests, a paper, poem analyzing and loads of worksheets. i’m super deatbeat tired. maybe i should start on my homework soon…
_i saw my friend ryan again, the one i met two years ago at All-State Orch. but he sings. choir, yes. but i am positively sure he’s gay, although he hasn’t said anything about it. but yeah, like all gay guys, he’s on the hot side. we had fun, and i revived my mandarin. and he met Tong-Yin, and they hit it off with madarin; i’m so jealous. i wish he spoke cantonese instead, it would be so much easier for me. i have no one to speak cantonese to, except for my parents.
ok, i think i shall go do my homework now.
Filed under: School
November 18, 2003 • 6:20 am
i like math. i just hate my teacher. mr.C is a bit of a butt. he doesn’t know how to teach the stuff. i mean, aren’t you supposed to? i understand nothing that he teaches. it’s all jibberish to me. but somehow, i have an ‘a’ in his class. i guess it’s because i’ve taught myself everything from the book, with a little help from mr.W. i’m just glad that next semester i’m switching to mrs.K’s class; i heard she’s a REAL math teacher! i’m excited. I love math, i just hate my teacher right now. if only life was easier, then the world would be a happier place…
ouch, my arm hurts. i don’t know why. oh! i’m leaving for fairbanks in two days! i’m so happy! i’m going to be school-free for three days! no more learning for me! but… i’ll have to study for like, three tests for the next week. arg. i hate school sometimes. ap gov is bugging me like hell again. and for english, we do nothing, although mr.R, i guess, felt like doing something, so we have all these poem analyzings to do by friday ( i won’t be here!) and an essay to start next week on analyzing a poem. seriously, i think teachers are crazy. they are doing one thing, you get used to it, then they switch it all up! it’s upsetting.
Filed under: Music, School
November 17, 2003 • 7:52 pm
Here now at school. God its so damn cold. i can hardly feel my fingers…
JM just left to find Tuck. I feel horrible. I have hardly seen him for the past week. I just wanted to hang out at physics room. Yes, well. I have priorities. I just wish it wasn’t so scary to drive, or else i would drive to his house everyday after school. but i can’t. it’s so damn scary to drive now because its all so icy. damn snow.
i hate winter. why my parents picked this place i have no clue. soon enough, i’m going to move outta here and go somewhere where there is only one or two seasons to deal with. it’s like below 5 right now. damn cold.
Filed under: Life, Rant
I’m Cold. Super Cold. I need my sleep. Arg. Can’t feel toes.
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