like a bee / April = the month of Hell

I was talking to Lop the other night and he made me realize how busy I’ve been… and how NOT busy I’ll be after this weekend.

Before this past weekend:
1) Classes
2) Work
3) Research project (at work)
4) Frisbee (tourneys and practices)
5) MCAT studying

After this coming weekend:
1) Classes
2) Work

THAT’S IT???!!! Five dwindles down to two. Weird. I’ll have to go work-out multiple times a week to make up for lack of frisbee practices and to keep myself busy. It’s not good times when I’m not busy. Crazy, I know.

… But until then… I feel like I’ve got too much to do. Blah.

Filed under: School

Oooo, baby!

Did the MCATs on Saturday and now I feel so much lighter. One thing done, two more to go… and then I’ll only have two things to worry about until the summer! Ahhh, it feels good to have one less thing to study for.

Picnic Day. Missed it last year, missed it this year. Will I miss it next year? Perhaps. Picnic Day usually falls on Sectionals Weekend, so maybe… All I hear about is Picnic Day and how great it is… and when I found out that my MCAT date was on Picnic Day…! Frustrating.

Then I had a brilliant plan to celebrate the end of MCATs by going out that night with a friend who had just turned 21 (I owe her birthday drinks) and well, she was already at another party. Poo. So I showered and returned some phone calls, but by the time I was done… I was so exhausted. A friend even invited me out but I was pooped and I also wasn’t up for biking all the way downtown. So I passed out in bed.  Sober.

Filed under: Life, Rant, School

weirds & helping

Highlights of the day: MU comp lab visit & Charlie Brown. Seeing the latter made me realize how I miss being part of theatre… especially the pit. I gotta pick up that ole violin again.

Woke up still… I don’t even know how to describe what I felt. Speechless… but I didn’t have to say anything… overwhelmed? Because I had so many disturbing and surprising thoughts in my head??? I’m not sure. What I DO know is that my first thought processes this morning were not pleasant.

OK. I may be slightly maybe probably kinda most-likely very disturbed. I still am. And I’m sick of hearing that name (it’s all over the place!). Three years may sometimes seem like such a long time, but in this case it feels like it was just last week. The hurt still lingers even though the main party I have not communicated since nearly then. I’m trying not to be unreasonable but I want this time to be the exception.

Filed under: Life, Rant

I.

Don’t.
Know.

The only way I can can keep this at bay is to not think about it… by keeping myself busy and distracted with the unimportant smaller things in life.

Wow, I’m such a killjoy.  Also, incompetent and definitely anxious about things I don’t want to care about any more.  When did any of this seem so mediocre and trite?

Grammar retardation.

Filed under: Rant