OK, so it was an irrelevant tag in a silly picture, but STILL.
Fine.
For giving others advice, it’s always perfectly clear. But for myself, I give people the benefit of the doubt, make up excuses, convince myself there’s another reason.
I finally get it. Will anything happen this weekend? I honestly don’t know. Probably not, since the last time seemed a little forced. I mean, one of the party was upset, anxious, or something that wasn’t a positive feeling. That always leaves a bad taste. Also, it was a little awkward during the visit. I think.
Fuck.
At this point I am self-consciously thinking I may be getting desperate. Which is NO GOOD. I am driving myself utterly insane. The beginning of this week started with a few weird and unnecessarily bad dreams. Bad dreams: dreams that are of situations that you wish to be true in real life, then you wake up to realize it’s never going to happen.
I am so AWKWARD.
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